The Future

By Ashton Swarvie

I question my sanity I question my life
Do I need a doctor?
Do I need a wife?
Should I have children?
To keep me occupied
‘Cos I rarely sleep
I’m up every night
I’m thinking about sex
Like every other man
But I’m learning about life
Anyway I can…
And I discovered the horrific
The lies and the stealing
The workers and the dealers
And the children following in…
Their idols footsteps, the parents’ negligence
They’re listening to homophobic tracks
Songs about women being sluts and the best thing is crack
I’m seeing kids dressed like Eminem, 50 cent…
They got no identity. Influence is everything, influence is everything
If I had my way I’d make a change today
I’d be having anti-hatred protests almost every day
We can’t change the past but we can the future
Stop teaching children what is good for them and what isn’t!
You don’t have a clue, you need to wise up.

Tapestry

By Lauren Birch

It’s astounding
When the grey tapestry of your life
Is suddenly aglow with all the colours of the world
Emanating from one single strand

It casts away the shadows of despair
Breaking through the pure black strand of loneliness

It’s astounding
When you suddenly realise that this strand
This single piece of thread
Is the thing you’ve been looking for all along

…and you want to laugh
Because you finally feel alive

…and you want to cry
Because at the same time
You’re so scared that it was all just a dream
That you’ll wake up to the same old greys and blacks as before.

It’s so astounding
That you just want to stay in that moment forever
Gazing at the thread that changed your life
Gazing at that single thread
The thread…which has finally made the world bearable

Mum and Dad

By Ben Twigg

Mum
I’m so sorry if I ever made
You think you couldn’t believe
In me for whatever I did
Mum
I only wanted to make you proud
So I lied to you so I didn’t have to
Admit to myself
That I was still your child
I’m sorry I didn’t tell you soon
But I will make it up to you
I will be the best
I’ll make sure you know

Dad
You asked me once before
And I couldn’t tell you
Because if you knew
Then I knew your heart would sink
It would break in two
Dad
I’m sorry I didn’t tell you
But I’m so thankful you love me still
There was nothing that I could do
But now I know how it feels
The best thing you could ever do
Was accept me for who I am
Even though it took some time
You still found your way in the end

You need to know that I never meant
To hurt you or anyone
I was only sneaking out to have some fun
And to find myself

But mum and dad you’re still number one
And I will be here for you ’til my days are done

You need to know
I never meant to hurt you
Or anyone
Mum and dad you’re still number one
I will be here ’til my days are done

Me + These 2

By Ben Twigg

I’d rather keep myself happy,
Than walk in the darkness
Of the mistakes I keep making
I’d give it all up, the time I have
Left on this earth the times
I left this house to see him but not you

At the end of it all
I can only lean on myself
Got to live for myself
Got to choose me and no one else

I’m not one for decisions but if I had to chose
I’d choose me and not you
I’ve been forced to decide
The path I want to walk in life
So I would rather choose me
Instead of picking between these two

There’s no return at the point
Of no return, no pressure
But I think I will be okay
This isn’t a mistake
But a choice I needed to make
Between you and the man
Who made me open my eyes
And stay wide awake

I hold my hands in the air
Feeling like I could lie
And speak the words that didn’t matter
Or give up on this without giving it a try
I chose my decision ages back
I chose him and I won’t look back
But I now choose me and
That’s how it will stay
I now choose me, that’s how it’s meant to be

I’m not one for decisions but if I had to choose
I’d choose me and not you
I’ve been forced to decide
The path I want to walk in life
So I would rather choose me
Instead of picking between these two

If time is all I’ve got to lose
Then I choose me and not these two

If time is all I’ve got to lose
Then I choose me and not you

Liebe

By Ben Twigg

I left home to find a boy
Someone who would
Change my world
I wanted that boy
That boy I knew well
But
He did not want me
He put me through hell

“It’s alright” he said
“Brauche ich icht du bist liebe”
But I did not understand
For I do not speak German

I met this boy
From across the world
When I met him
His English was no good
He tried some words
Tried to help me out
But now it’s my turn
I watch and flirt

“It’s alright” he said
“Brauche ich icht du bist liebe”
But I did not understand
For I do not speak German

Fatherly Love

By Lauren Birch

Daddy why do you look at me
Like I’m some kind of freak
Look me in the eyes
I’m still your little girl inside

Daddy why do you tell me
That what I feel is wrong
If you could only see
I’m still your little girl

Why is this choice I’ve made
So hard for you to understand

I can’t help how I feel
Why can’t you understand?
This is for real…

Daddy why do you look at me
Like I’ve got a disease
Look me in the eyes
Why can’t you see I’m not some freak

Why is this choice I’ve made
So hard for you to understand

I can’t help how I feel
I wish you could understand
This is for real…

Daddy, please don’t hate me
I’m still your little girl
Please understand…

Be Yourself

By Ben Twigg

We’re living in an inner century belief
That we must be what everyone else sees
Act the way everyone else thinks
Let each other breathe, forget about the future

It’s not all about success,
Just be yourself
And the rest is set
Failure is ok every now and then
As long as you learn
To forgive but never forget

Be yourself in every single way
It’s ok to be different, single or gay
No one controls you or makes you decide
It’s your choice to make
I hope you don’t hide
In this life-long fight

Fighting through these history pages
Living through these horrible ages
Fighting all these friendly faces
We can be strong
Fighting through these history pages
Living through these horrible ages
Fighting all these friendly faces
We do belong

Be yourself in every single way
It’s ok to be different, single or gay
No one controls you or makes you decide
It’s your choice to make
I hope you don’t hide
In this life long fight

Fighting through these history pages
Living through these horrible ages
Fighting all these friendly faces
We can be strong
Fighting through this history pages
Living through these horrible ages
Fighting all these friendly faces
We do belong

Deeper

By Ben Twigg

It’s too hard to ask
But help him stay alive
He needs us now
But why do we hide?
Behind our broken masks
The truth is out on the table
Nothing is left and nothing is able

I’ll go deeper and deeper
And deeper and deeper
Searching for the answer

Why did we ever leave him?
He lost his way again
But we need to try
We need to gain back the trust
Something that will make us last
The truth is out on the table
Nothing is left nothing is able
To bring the light to bring back the light
Bring back the light to his eyes

I go deeper and deeper
And deeper and deeper
Searching for the answer

Will you ever change?
Back to you
I don’t want to die
From my fears and my lies
I go deeper and deeper and deeper
And deeper
Searching for the answer

Will you ever change?
Back to you
I don’t want to die
From my fears and my lies
I go deeper and deeper and deeper
And deeper
Searching for the answer

Blame it on the Condom

By Alex Dunkin

It was then, there, the moment
Hot in the sheets
Me and him, him and me
Newborn bare, teen eager
Square pack in hand, the final temptation
Wait, no, there it’s gone; the moment
The square would not tear

Gasps of horror and snickers throughout
Sheets a rising cold
Me and it, it and me
Gnawing teeth, biting hard
Square pack in hand, the final obstacle
Almost, yes, the pack stretches
The square must be torn

Two members fade, humour strikes
I blush in the heat
Him and me, it and me
Won’t happen now, feelings flushed
Square in his hand, his moment
How? Too easy, trickery at hand
He tore the square